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Unlearning Broken

  For a long time, I longed for something fundamental: to be seen, truly seen, for who I am. It felt like a distant dream, a hope I kept tucked away. Many of you may have glimpsed fragments of my inner world through the cryptic messages and eye-centric photos I've shared. My eyes, I believe, speak volumes—they reflect the emotions I feel and the emotions I see in others. The reason I used to let my hair cover my eyes was to hide my emotions from those who could decipher them, as I could do with theirs. My eyes also served as a partial mask, a way to show a piece of myself while hiding the vulnerability I felt, the deep-seated feeling of being broken. Recently, something shifted. A ripple of change has begun, and for the first time, I feel a sense of being truly witnessed. It's a profound and emotional experience. This change, I know, is the result of one person's courage and efforts to bridge a long-standing gap. The influence of their actions is now creating new possibilit...

Navigating Connection: A Transgender Woman's Relationship Journey

I feel this article is more about language, communication skills, and the human mind's perplexing logic in how individual choices are made in correlation to relationships, rather than anything else. Throughout my transition, I have joined many groups to establish a form of relationship—be it platonic friendships, romantic ones (dating), or the possibility for something a little bit more serious and involved. Throughout my interactions, I came across many types of people who showed some form of interest in me for various reasons, which I am about to explain. But, before I can get into my own understanding of the different relationships I have experienced thus far, I feel the need to interject about my own relationship status and orientation; this will become very relevant as you read throughout this article. In the conclusion of this article, I will specify the kind of relationship I am seeking and explain why. My Orientation and Current Relationship Status I identify as a pansexual...

Discovering Ace: My Journey to Understanding Asexuality

  Introduction: This article aims to demystify asexuality and its profound implications for how we understand desire, relationships, and societal norms. By simplifying complex concepts and using accessible language, I hope to offer insights that resonate with a wide audience. Whether you identify as asexual or simply seek to broaden your understanding of human connection, this piece will explore what it means to be 'ace'—a crucial and often misunderstood aspect of human diversity. Main article: Articulating my own sexuality was a struggle for a long time. Throughout high school, college, and university in Montreal, I knew I was different. While I understood my own feelings well, explaining them to others proved difficult. To outsiders, I often appeared to have a sexual dysfunction. Asexual people often face prejudices, including questions like: Are asexual people just afraid of sex? Are they secretly gay/straight/etc. and in denial? Is asexuality a phase or something they'l...

Capturing the Unconscious Gaze–The Unseen Self

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I've noticed a significant difference between what a camera captures in a still image and what my eyes perceive. When I look in a mirror, I see my usual, neutral expression. However, upon reviewing photographs taken by the camera, I can discern emotions in each frame that I wasn't consciously aware of. To test this, I conducted a small experiment: I placed my hand on the side of my face, partially covered one eye, and looked into the mirror. While doing so, I blinked and simultaneously turned my head to look at a window. During this process, I had a camera pointed at the mirror, capturing rapid images. When I later examined these images, I was astonished to find emotions in my eyes that I hadn't realized were present. These were truly incredible findings. This article will highlight some key differences between how our brains process visual information in real-time and how a camera captures it. I will explain why I think I might be seeing emotions in my camera's still i...